Sunday, March 25, 2007

Desperation

Last night went for drinks with some forum friends and one of them brought along a male friend. I can't help but laughed at the actions by this person. When I got there, he was sitting beside the friend who brought him there, quiet, not involved in the conversation AT ALL. Watching soccer on the television, sms-ing, sipping his half pint Kilkenny. I didn't take much of a notice of him as I don't usually go around introducing myself and start talking away, besides I was well entertained with the people at my table.

I thought the night would go on like this until a female shows up. Immediately, he springs into life. Saw him introducing himself and moved his chair across so as to chat with her. We were wondering was he really such a good talker or the gal was just being kind not to get herself out of the conversation with him. Soon numbers were exchanged. (I bet my last dollar that he calls her today) Then when the female leaves, he leaves too, leaving his friend who brought him. He don't even bother saying bye to the rest of us. At least the female did.

Such desperation shown by that guy. I mean like one friend mentioned "guys will be guys" we are attracted to the opposite sex but he don't have to make it so obvious right? Complete different behaviour with the appearance of a female. I wonder what happens if the female didn't show up? He go bang a wall?

Told tare that good thing I met up with her half way and went to the place together else she might just be the one he 'attacks'. She said he won't be so 'lucky' with her if he tried. hahaha...

Friday, March 16, 2007

WEAK

This is the best word to describe me. I feel so weak recently :(

Physically - kept fall victim to sore throats which developed into cough (I hate cough as it disturbs my beauty sleep) and now the nose joins in the fun by developing flu. Headache was then invited by flu to join inthe party of torturing me.

Mentally - always failed to concentrate on what I planned to do. Failed to study. Failed to stop thinking so much about someone/something. Failed to process issues in a more logical manner. Failed to prioritise.

Emotionally - this weakling heart of mine often goes against the mind. When the mind says stop wasting time, the heart skips a beat and overwrites the mind. Can't blame the heart when you have a weak mind. I believe soon it would be strengthen and I will be back to my carefree, couldn't be bothered, old self again. (I'm Mr Ice Man who gave people a sense of having a wall around me and not open up enough, not even to someone I fancy)

Financially - this has always been my weakest link. Never managed to keep the money in the bank but somehow I can still survive. Just found out that the government is coming to my aid again. NSS crediting to my account in April. ;)

Wish I can be stronger.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

The Best Expression Of Love Is Time

The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time.

Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money but you can't make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

~ From The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren


Got the above passage from a friend's blog in multiply. After reading it, found that it's very meaningful and true.

Time is part of your life, isn't it true that only those you classified as important then would you want to take a portion of your 'life' to say 'Hi', to keep in touch, to give priority to?
For those not important, you will come up with reasons and excuses just to excuse yourself for spending part of your 'life' with for as the passage suggested, once you gave someone your time, you will never get it back. Therefore the more time you spent with someone, the more important the person is.

Of course, this does not restrict just to people, it also applicable to something you do. What you spend time on doing suggests that the particular thing you are doing is important to you or you enjoy doing it and won't mind parting some of your 'life' doing it. Therefore the more time you spent doing something, the more important that particular thing is.

So how are you spending your life?

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I am Teochew

Today I took a day off not solely because I have an assignment due at 2359 today but it's my grandmother's death anniversary. I actually don't know how long she has been gone. If memory serves me right, should be 20 over years already.

二姑,三姑,四姑,小姑 came. While having lunch with them, the usual question pops up again. "di xi ai chai ah guo jia jiu?" (trying to make it in the tone of Teochew and I don't think I need to translate this to tell you what they asked) I tried answering back in Teochew but FAILED. The 姑姑 said I need to brush up my Teochew :P hahaha.... not surprising to me. Have been trying to speak but who to practise with because even my dad is just a passing case when comes to Teochew.

I do sometimes envy those with grandparents, not only they get to learn a language but also another person to be doted by. I remember my mum telling me that my grandmother loves me very much and when young I love half boiled eggs. Grandma will make sure that I get my daily dose :P and when she's gone, mum said I cried and say "no more eggs to eat liao"

Well... guess I have to find another way to work on my Teochew. :)

Life is a balance of holding on and letting go

Got the above message from a friend. Initially it appeal to me as a romance message of holding to someone you fancy or letting him or her go. When I take a second look at it, it dawn upon me that it can indeed be used for life in general.

Holding on to your job or letting it go. You are going nowhere as it has become a routine but you love your work, your colleague and your boss loves you.

Holding on to your old school books or letting it go. Was it taking up too much space or you can spare the space for the sentimental values attached to it. The little drawings or thoughts scribbled on certain pages.

Holding on to your group of friends or letting them go. Wasn't asking you to isolate yourself but how many so call friends are indeed friends? Are you selective or take whoever comes by and say 'Hi'.

Holding on to your hobbies or letting it go. Sometime you enjoyed, sometime that takes your mind of your stressful work, family or love life. If in the reverse, its taking too much of your time and money then should you let it go?

There are many things in life which is indeed a choice between holding on to or letting it go. You need to strike a balance in your choice of holding on to and letting go. Too much of anything is no good. Life without anything is also no good.